I never knew emotions could feel like they are killing you. I can’t eat, my mind won’t let me sleep, and I cannot count the number of breakdowns I have endured in the past 48 hours. The worst feeling of all however, is the one I get when I realize he doesn’t care what he is doing to me; that he is quite content with cutting me out of his life.
People around me are trying to console me, but to be honest, it doesn’t help and their words are just sounds. I know that I will eventually be alright, but it seems near impossible in my current state. All I can do is mindlessly go through my daily routine, and pray that someday, I will be able to let others in again.